Dearest, (#EY000.04agg)

. . .
 
Dearest “i am” of “You”,
 
Greetings !
 
This has been “me” in “my family”
 
I was literally “presented”,
of my mother being “pregnant” with “me”,
as
the “living doll”,
for my 7 year old (at the time) sister,
to “cope”
with the “sharing” of
the “home”,
with the “new BEing”,
“MySelf”.
 
Within a few years,
the “joke” of the “family”
i heard over and over again, was
that
” i could not possibly be their child ”
there must have been
” a ‘mistake’ made at the clinic “,
that they were
” given the ‘wrong’ child “.
 
In fact,
i was so “naughty”
my family
would call me
“Ataxia”,
(instead of “Alexia”)
 
the Ellenic word for
“naughtiness”,
 
{ “Α~ΤΑΞΙΑ” > “α” στερητικό + ΤΑΞΗ
“α” steritiko + “taxe”, “taxi”.
> deprivative “a” + “order”}
 
” that which is not ordered “.
 
I attempted to leave “home”
one evening (not morning),
at about 5 years “old”.
 
If it was impossible for “me” to
find my “genuine” family
to “have” me, then
(with a few of “my belongings”
in the smallest “suitcase” one may imagine),
atleast
i could go “find”
“the man on the moon”
who,
(i kept being told)
“takes the naughty children”.
 
I was not “missed” … immediately.
 
I was “retrieved”,
from a far less lit street,
further up and “across”
the “avenue”
of the “household / business”
home,
i used to “live”.
 
.
 
I was not “aware” it was a “bad thing”,
(being an “Ataxia”)
as i consider “it” being
a character “accomplishing trait” of mine.
 
I came to this life, “knowing” … “New Earth”.
 
For MySelf it was NOT “about AWAKENING” !
 
I went into “breakdown”
(gradually in this “lifetime” of mine)
BE~CAUSE
i have been “AWAKE”
in a world
that
did not “match”,
with
the “i am”
“i”
 
ALL WAYS
~
“always”
 
“knew” about,
and
“have been”,
and,
was
“time after time after time”
given “slaps”
to
“sleep into the nightmare”
of what “life” and “the world”
is “really” … “abOUT”.
 
“TIME after TIME after TIME”
 
BE~CAUSE,
“time”,
is SO imperative
for this world of the “old paradigm”
to “function”,
to “be in order”.
 
For “My Self”,
it has
 
ALL WAYS
~
“always”
 
been
“why”
is “this” so “messed up” ?!!!!
 
“WHY”
cannot “they” “see” ?!!!
 
“HOW”
cannot “they” possibly “not see” ?!!!!
 
.
 
The “duality and separation”
NEVER
made ANY “sense” to My Self.
 
I did not “escape” into “pretend”.
 
I did “internalise” EVERY thing, yes.
 
And, “i”
 
ALL WAYS
~
“always”
 
“recognised”
the “internalisations”
to be
“wrong”
for MySelf to
“carry”.
 
.
 
I simply,
have been
spending “my life”
“reaching”
to “learn”
about this
“human condition”
and
“life on eARTh”
through
“companion~ship”.
 
NOT to find “a miracle”.
 
.
 
“BE~coming” the “miracle”, “MySelf” !
 
.
 
“That” which the “i am” arrived “here” to “deliver”.
 
.
 
NOT to “follow”.
 
NOT to “drive” anyone else.
 
.
 
To “BE” a “companion” !
 
To “give” to “companions” !
 
To “receive” from “companions” !
 
To “LIVE” IN “CompanionShip” !
 
.
 
And, by the way …
 
… “ναι”
 
.
 
Ἡ Ἀ~φθονία ΜΑΣ Εἶναι ἀναπόφευκτη
 
.
 
ΕΥγνωμόνοια
 
.
 
ale3iA
 
.

.

 

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